Sunday, November 25, 2007
I'm now typing this on wordpad..bcos my internet connexion is dwn n cos im lazy to use words..wth singtel is always having problems..stupid..
So as all of u hu noe me noe,im working at ntuc income..thanx to wan..n working at the tamp branch is great cos so far ive been punctual, i take many ovrtym,wich equals to more pay, near my hse and my boo's sch n most importantly,no more ponteng2 keje!! yayy!!
HOWEVER..
Many people, including me, have had bad xperiences wif ths 1 particular staff..i mean she's all mean,rushing,selfish n all..so one day me n her had a sort of an argument,thank gudness during lunch n at that point of tym only me her n my officer were left, and she started her high and mighty way on me..ouh yea i retaliated (if u noe me,u shudnt b surprised) and alas, my officer (the exec) did the work for us and told me in private tt the lady is lyk tt n tt i musnt take things to heart..omg he (my officer) is juz way too nice i hope noone bully him..ever since tt incident,i juz sort of bcome more daring..im the type of person where if i dun noe u,ill b all kind n gentle n juz say yes or sorry all the tym..but ths tyme no..even wen im in public..but itz not my fault really..Ever since tt day, i promise myself to stand up to overly rude people,even if i dun noe dem (esp aunts n uncles who cn b damn treacherous and rough)
This stupid chinese lady (in 30s or 40s) was standing right behind me..i didnt see her bcos me n cayang were bz keeping our eyes on bus no.21 cos we're lazy to wait for 358 (were at p.ris int) so wen i saw the bus,i immediately turn to rush to bus21's line so wen i turned,i practically hug tt lady n my right hand nearly touch her stupid saggy boobs but i managed to stop myself in time and SAID a genuine n sincere SORRYwen she suddenly spat her venom (not literally!!) at me saying "watch where you're going!!" come on, who asked u to stupidly place ur big fat stupid ugly body behind me?so i spat back (again not literally) saying "hey i didnt see ryt!! stupid!!" and walked off..i didnt gt the chance to hurled more vulgarities cos 1) rushing for bus21. 2)im a Muslim and shouting back at her in public already halfway ruining Islam's image. Haiz..
I mean,juz bcos im wearing tudung doesnt mean im subjected to abuses lyk tt ryt?cum on lar,if u tink ure higher den me, go goddamn build ur own toilet all over the world lar, we might even haf used the same jamban before!!
Prev,sumone slammed me at my tagboard for my photos of me n cayang at frenster..the person said im ruining Islam's image..cum on lar,today we take pix wif evryone ryt?even ustaz are now acting on telemovies (hey im being cynical n sarcastic here..i swear i m against ustaz acting anywher!!) and in my pic,not lyk we're kissing or hugging or sth..and the person slammed me in response of my entry slamming Muslim gerls who openly declare their negative attitudes publicly on frenstrs,blogs n all mediums dey can lay their hands upon..
I mean, how wuld u react seeing a tudng clad gerl taking normal pix with ABSOLUTELY NO PHYSICAL contacts wif her boyfren?uneasy ryt?if with physical contact?feeling lyk puking and a bit angry ryt?or for sum ppl, furious ryt?wat if i had said that were pix of me n my best guy fren?wud that person hu slammed me, slam me at all?
How wud u react seeing or reading a muslim girl's (wearing tudung specifically) profile sumwher n tt person openly,boldly n daringly declare "I may look like a bitch but im not one.." or "i may look innocent but i do bite"s or "if ure nice to me,ill b nice to you but if ure bad to me,ill b worse to you"..u will feel irked and shame and many otha not-so-nice feelings all mix togethr ryt?
Haiz..
Sumtyms we're too fast to point out people's mistakes, too fast to slam people, too fast to blame, but wen we point to sumone, rmmbr,3 fingers are pointed back to ourselves..the 3 fingers either mean 1) you're doin the same thing..correct urself before admonishing others. or 2) remember not to be lyk the person who you juz admonished.
I'm saying al ths bcos im NOT letting myself BULLIED again..juz bcos i shut up, people are taking advantages on me..i used to be loud n wen i dun lyk it i say it out loud..but as i grow, i realised tt wat i did actually hurt people more and the chances of them changing for the better is next to nil so itz better to juz chill and let dem take us as an example..but now, if things are getting out of hands, and before i lose my temper, before the volcano erupted, i let myself known, i make it clear, i send down the ashes and if you're lucky, the volcano might not splurt even 1mm of larva..
"Action speaks louder than words. But words hurt more than action"
Ps: Wadeva people say,we'll stay together cayang..i love u!!!
secrets within @ 3:56 AM
