I was listening to Casper's soundtrack, Remember Me This Way by Jordan Hill wich my boo sent to me..I wasnt listening to the song properly,the song has a nice tune and that's it..but juz now after showering,i found myself humming to the tune and so after Isyak i listened to the song once again but ths tym,listening hard,trying to catch evry single wrod,phrase and dissect dem in search for the meaning wich isnt hard to do..and it touched me and reminded me of my long lost best friends, Sufiah Humairah Bte Abdul Hamid and Siti Misba'ah Bte Abdul Hamid Asyhur who is apparently in M'sia,schooling there..
And suddenly i feel sooo lonely..I donno why but ths few weeks,ive been keeping to myself..Itz not that im a loner..Im surrounded by great friends..but hey,maybe i'm loner..
I'm longing for someome whom i can call my no.1 bestfriend in the whole wide world..Yes,maybe ppl who knw me n my frenz will say dont you have fyra?i noe..i'm sorry but itz not the same..maybe i juz miss my two besties..the two bestfriends i've missed for 7 years..or perhaps more..
It's very saddening to lose dem..Esp Siti Misba'ah or whom i called Misbah..I dunno how the r'ship of the 3 of us were forged..Suddenly we were best friends forever..but i'm closer to Misbah..There were strives,yes there were loadz of dem..but the frenship had remained so strong,too strong that i couldnt ever in my life imagined my life without her..I can never have a fren as special as her..All ths while,ths loong 7 years,i found myself occassionally thinking of her..The last tym i saw her was wen i was in sec3 if not mistaken and buy den she's already went to M'sia..
Actually our f'ship drifted wen she switched to govt school as she couldnt cope studying in mdrsh,watz wif having 14 subs crammed into her head all at once..but yea she excelled in govt sch..the moment her mom told me that she will put Misbah to govt sch,i nearly cried in front of her but i choked bck my tears..and on Misbah's last day of sch,we've promised that nth can or ever wll jeopardise pur f'ship,that we will stay as best friends forever,after we graudtaed after we gt married..but in the end,we juz drifted apart..and of coz i made lil efforts to revive the f'ship but she didnt look like she's that interested and our conversations,wich we rarely had after she switched sch,turned into awkward talks and in the end,no more fone calls btwn us..
I need a bestfriend..For laughter and tears..anyone up for the challenge?hahahaha kidding2..itz juz that,haiz,i realy miss having loadz of frenz around cuming hanging out at my hse or theirs'..Haiz..
This video clip i gt fr you tube,Jordan Hill's Remember me this way is specially dedicated to My ultimate Best Freidns who I will cherish my entire life and remmbr always, Siti Misba'ah Asyhur and Sufiah Humairah, and also the frnz,regardless of age and races, who i've never realy or at all kept in ctnct wif,forgotten,new frnz,regadless of the strifes we've had, I will cherish all of you..also specially for Zeid, Qin, Twins Wati and Mun,Khairunnisa Saruan (Woon heehee),Fyra and all my frenz,classmates, I Love You all nomatter what..Hikmah will never change,to qoute fr Tch Sarinah hahahaha..and yes i will never..the same jovial,sensitive,sumtyms temperemental Hik,Hikky,Hikma, Remember Me This Way..
P/s: Too bad ths video deosnt feature any of Devon Sawa's (wen Casper turned into a boy) Hpt Cutie Face..hahah wont let u all see and remmbr that face!! He's all mine okay hahahahaha kidding2..
Pps: I Love You With All My Heart Muhammad Nadhir..Ure still my mega ultimate best friend =)
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